Kathy Volk Miller and Marion Wrenn at the Collingswood Book Fair

Kathy Volk Miller and Marion Wrenn at the Collingswood Book Fair

Kathy Volk Miller and Marion Wrenn at the Collingswood Book Fair

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Jenean Gilstrap


the procedure...
thoughts
dangerous thoughts
thoughts better left un-thought
thoughts not thought before
not caught before
not sought before
thoughts of you
twirling twisting their way
out of the cold barren skeleton of my soul
thoughts filled with x-ray images no longer black and white
taking form taking life taking my life taking me
rising falling pulsating fluctuating beating repeating
thoughts transforming morphing
melting into the laborious birth of acts
encroaching on reality on my reality
on my sovereignty on my sanity
poison pitocin injected relentlessly
into the muscle of my heart
contracting squeezing forcing out
giving birth to
acts
dangerous acts
acts better left undone acts known acts unknown
acts best forgot acts best left behind
basic acts
with you
you acting as the ascending aorta
pumping life pumping love
preserved in the empty chambers of what was
acts pumping pulsating promising
accentuated by desire by need
by hunger by craving yearning
by a capsule life of passionless civility
at times turned uncivil
acts that criticize
proselytize
acts that resist
resist reality
acts that rebel
rebelling acts
revolutionary acts
acts revolting revolving resolving
acts revealing
revealing me my thoughts my words
revealing now
the
autopsy
of my soul...

>> The words for next month:
Elephant SealĀ , Sinister, and Drill


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